holy shit.... so much to tell you but if you are reading this currently you know of the covid pandemic the explosion in beirut and all the other craziness.... but its been a while since I've written here today is my birtday and I've gone back into my alternate reality again by a video of the woman i should be married to and her daughter but this is strange because its also like inception a dream in a dream in a dream I know that I entered this alternate reality a little more than ten years ago it happened in texas a few hours before my dad passed away I was pulled over by the police and after that my whole world disappeared... and I am here now - where ever here is every few years I want to wake up in my real reality but I could be much worse off than here I may be in a coma now reliving my time before the onset of the coma or sleep trying to determine possible outcomes and getting them wrong but the good thing about this alternate reality is that i get to see my almost wife and step daughter a lot and that's so much more thanwhat I had in my real life i may not want to leave