i can't escape

or so it seems

91 days left in tucson

strange......

my outside of job food related stuff - is me currently working on a recipe for a friends restaurant in hermosillo mexico - me inside of work pulling a dishwasher shift tomorrow - it.does.not.get.any.better.than.this.

for sarah.

5 favorite fruits

i have 5 favorite fruits - three are ready now
cuties(california clementines), pink lady apples & and cara cara navel oranges

the other two are ready around june & july

pluots and rainier cherries

my current mood

soberly thoughtful; pensive.

happy, happy, no

rounding the corner

it's getting real, the move east - it's almost mid november
so about 4 months or so but the holidays always fly by so fast

spent today updating the resume -

posted an ad in the dc/md/va craigslist to fish for any leads on private chef and catering gigs

sent off 2 e-mails to friends in the catering business looking for on site chef gigs...

i know its a few months out but i like to get my network on early....

today....

today is the one year anniversary of me being laid off from canyon ranch.... the past year has been a struggle - but i survived.

for real..... for true

Idleness is not just a psychological necessity, req­uisite to the construction of a complete human being; it constitutes as well a kind of political space, a space as necessary to the workings of an actual democracy as, say, a free press. How does it do this? By allowing us time to figure out who we are, and what we believe; by allowing us time to consider what is unjust, and what we might do about it. By giving the inner life (in whose precincts we are most ourselves) its due. Which is precisely what makes idle­ness dangerous. All manner of things can grow out of that fallow soil. Not for nothing did our mothers grow suspicious when we had "too much time on our hands." They knew we might be up to something. And not for nothing did we whisper to each other, when we were up to something, "Quick, look busy."

"Quitting the Paint Factory," by Mark Slouka

lies..... still

i talked to her - long distance - not sure how far it is as the crow flies
from tucson to manila - 7,933 to be exact and a half day or so ahead or a 3/4 of a day ahead - the end result of the conversation
i'm still not being 100% honest with her
i'm not sure - maybe because i can get away with it

maybe because of this

so i don't know if we ever
one: talked to each other again
or
two: were in the same place at the same time

we would fall back into our usual roles
and thats the truth.