scared.....

i've been all talk the past 5 months about my future plans.... which as of now are not even beginning to pan out - i mean they are on the horizon, but i have no real way to get there - - -

i made a huge life change more than 10 year ago - moved 2500 miles away from home with no job and no place to live and i was able to go 10 years worry free ( that's bullshit )

so i have a decision - i can renew my lease for minimum of 8 months - at an increase of 5 dollars a month - and try to save money for travel - or let the lease go month to month and have the rent go up 100 dollars a month which right now i can't afford

or option three sell everything - move back home - try to pick up work for a few months and then travel - at least then i wont have any bills.....

everything is still up in the air......