circle gets the square

i play grown up board games
like really old school board games
like in the park for all day
feeding pigeons popcorn games
like the starbucks that magic johnson owns
which is next to the friday's up the street
from where i used to live in los angeles games

i play backgammon, and try to play chess
and that's it - i like dice and boards with monochrome
squares on them - i like to feel the wind
outside - or on the beach in laguna
playing backgammon with a friend who has really weird thumbs
and has survived malaria

i like to think that i was born before.... maybe in harlem
maybe spain - maybe morocco
this would only make sense because all of these " gifts "
that i have came on without any notice

and consume me until i have trouble sleeping
sometimes i am so consumed - the only answer for me is to remain still
calm - almost shut down